Are You Alone

Posted by CMG on August 10, 2023

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'Are you alone?' is a question that daunts me, vexes me, frightens me
I can almost smell the words 'fore they pass across their lips
their reeking odor, just as stomach turning as when they ask 'Are you happy?'

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their words are loaded with pretext, preconception
Expecting sorrow from a missing companion, a missing love, as should
the mere presence of new human flesh bring ease and soothe an aching heart

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I smile and shrug it off, their inquiry desevers no better answer
for a sufficient one would take time to tell, though I doubt if I could

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I feel alone, at certain times, when the witching hour dwells and I
reach out to find an empty space, my hand hoping to catch a glimpse of
warmth but finding naught but cold covers

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I feel happy, at certain times, when the warming sun sends its heart
and endorphins down for me to bask in on the garden grass
When new beginnings roar all doubt aside and wash my shoulders free of weight

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Complexity is to me a synonym for things I can't explain
sorrow, relief and solitude all roam around me in messy matrimony
A deep breath, before I answer all questions just the same

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'It's complicated'

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